I have always seen disunity both within myself and in society, and for many years I didn't understand why this was so. after emigrating and living in different countries, this sense only intensified.
through practice with a certain person, I began to gain clarity and cultivate inner strength. alongside positive changes, I also encountered vast expanses of my own savagery and ignorance — and without transforming these, any attempt to 'fix the whole world' would be, to put it mildly, incorrect.
and this is not some trashy schizoterics based on shortcuts or at best self-deception, though I went through that too. these are serious practices of self-inquiry and self-development based on non-human principles. not in the sense that they are inhumane, but in the sense that they are far deeper than typical human paradigms.